Is it really true?!!!

Is it really true? Or one of my nightmares...!!!
is it the end or the beginning of suffering till the end...!!!

This big spot of very cute dreams have finally killed!!!
This candle of hope has finally melted and its warm fire gone!!!
And these huge amounts of destroyed memories have only left...…!!!

Yes, u gave me the boat to pass this scary river but with a hidden whole in it.
Yes, u gave me the coat to hide me from cold but left me in a chilly wind.
Yes, u has drawn a big smile on my face but a smile with a hopeless tear.
Yes, u helped me to climb the mountain but to throw me from the top.
Yes, u show me the way throw the darkness but to imprison me away.
Yes, u saved me with ur right hand and a knife was ready to kill me at the left one.

I won't blame you but shouId i blame who?!
I will take my revenge soon but from who?!
I can not hate you but what shouId i do?!

you do not deserve my tears, you do not deserve my thinking, you do not deserve my heart BUT you only deserve to say to you..." Thank you "!!!