Final Seminar...!!!

No comment as I am still not responding, in other word I have no feelings for that day :-S...!!!!

Second part...
I think I can now write some thing about this day ...
I remember this day morning we were the fourth group ... I was early at college but as usual my group were late ... I was so worry when I found the second presenting their project and my group did not reach yet!!!

any way, we begin our presentation in time ... My family were there, some closed persons :-) and other stuff I do not know them...
of course do not forget the other stuff of our nice and cute drs -- >( syam , shar2awy and 3bd el badee3 :@)

they kept looking for the documentation all the time and did not care at all of how we talk or about what we talk even they did not care who is talking... And that is was clear when they asked after that about stuff we talked about it already in our presentation !!!

after we received a very stupid questions made my blood boil and felt like I will throw one of them from the window...

by the way the presentation finished I did got any feelings at all ... I am not sad... I am not happy... Just no responding for any feelings...

I missed my group... I did not consider them as a group at all ...

the most important that we finished thx Allah...
wish Allah help me and them in our future ISA...

Preparing For My Divorce...I Am Freeeeeeee :-D!!!

Yeah, that is my feeling right now.. Finally it is only 2 days and I will got divorced and I will be definitely freeeeeeeeee...heeeeeeeeeeeh :-D !!!
I suffered a lot, I can not bear more ... I can not imagine that is finally will be the END...
and these stupid kids will be encapsulated into a box under my bed ... heeeeeeeeeeeeh :-D!

finally, I will live my life... After these long years between courts trying to get rid off from this miserable life ... Going throw many hard tests and stupid situations ... I am freeeeee !!!

ahhhhhhhhh, I will clear my sadness and replace it with joy...
ISA, I won't be back ISA... I will ask Allah from now on for that... I will be comfort totally when I hold this paper with my hand... A paper announce my divorce and say that is I am freeeeee!!!

My freedom is only mine... I won't allow any one to control it again...
U can not take me as I am FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :-D

Note:- for any possible conflict my divorce = my graduation

FriendShip and last day ...!!!

My friend, My closed friend, my antim,...Etc ... A lot of friendship words express many different levels of friendship...
mmm... For me I never considered in these words and I never believed that they have real meanings in our life...

I noticed at our last day at final exams that every body try to enjoy his/her time with his/her friends as much as they can ... Most of them are sad because they may won't able to contact each other again...!!!
So, what is wrong?! It is so normal ... We meet people, we leave people ..It is a round ... But to have a real friend, no I do not think so...

a friend who share ur sadness and joy ... Feel U...Express ur feelings well... A mirror of ur thoughts... And that is so rare to find nowadays...!!! All what we c is just an illusion...In fact it may be the illusion of the illusion!

but, as it is a word in our dictionary called a friend so I should find a meaning for it even it is a private poitn of view...
okay for me friend or friendship :- it is a contract between two persons contains the conditions for each part and each part MUST accept other part conditions...If (condition == true) so we can consider both as friends else forget about this deal at all ...! And the most pobabilty to this condition to set by false but most of people can break these condition by CHEATING, in other word each part may deceive his/her self and say that she/he agree the other part condition and in fact it is not true at all...!!!

in fact, nowadays it is hard even impossible to find the person who deserve ur care, love or friendship... And it is almost impossible to give some one ur trust and if u did u had to put ur hand beside next to ur heart and prepare ur self expecting a TREASON... !!!

Hey, it is not mean that I never met real people that I can mention them as my friends one day ... It is not true cuz I really did and found very nice people but I hope that is their real faces and not an illusion !!!... I am a bit sure that after a while when each one get a bit busy they will forget about other at all ...But, I do not blame them... That is our life that I should accept and used to its rules...!

about the conclusion that live ur life, meet people, offer ur help as much as u can and do not wait for the price!! , do not expect the best from any one as may be u will be chocked later, if u gonna give ur trust to any one take care and do not act as a blind and finally be frank with ur self first then with people and plz tell the TRUTH even what is it!!...

finally, special thx for any one I met, treated with him/her or considered him/her as a friend for a period of time ... I have learned a lot from u All ...
with all my respect and my best wishes for u all... Allah bless u ... :-)

My Grandmom...

hmmm... I do not know why I felt that I wan write about the most especial person in my life ... The source of mercy, pity, feelings, kindness, care and love...
The moon for my road through the darkness... The sun of my life ... The joy in my heart ... The volcano of passion ... She is my grandma but I consider her as my whole family ...

My soul, I need u so much .... I hope if u were here right now beside me...I want ur hand to erase my tears ....I need ur look to remove my fear ... I miss ur voice to abolish my rage...

Mom, U left me alone here ... But, I know that u r in a better place now and I wish u the best in afterlife as u ever hoped for me too in life... U were a strong woman who deserves a lot ... I have not the words to express my feelings towards U... It is words not created yet in the dictionary ... I wanna to generate a private dictionary only to express my love to U...
u cared for me and I know that u still care ... U r the one who acknowledged me...I wish to be with u as soon as possible enjoying our time at paradise and u gonna tell me ur nice stories which wre the source of happy dreams as u ever did before...
I never forget u and I won't ISA... U r in my heart and mind for All my life ... ur breath will keep going throw my whole body...
Allah, be merciful towards her, bless her, forgive her, and forgive me too to be with her ISA at paradise... :-(


Mom, I LOVE U SO MUCH (Y)
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Pre-Final...!!!

Oh, what along day?!!!...
I got so tired today but not from the presentation itself but from waiting a long for my FATE ... ya, I went to college early morning and met my group then we made our final prova for the presentation...Then we kept waiting and waiting and waiting ... ---> (U know well that is here in Egypt No care for time, No care for rules even No care for humans and so FCIS!!!)

by the way , I was not so bad today... We have judged with a very very nice stuff who kept watching us all the time waiting for our mistakes ...!!!
especially, this very interested person "Dr.Esaam ata" who has the ability to ask u about any thing even he did not understand or know the topic of the presentation...ex:- why u choose this background color?! ---> (why not asking while I am able to talk ?!!!)
Also, this cute person "Dr.syaam" who has 3 doctor degrees at (complexetey)... This is a great man who can illustrate or speak about any topic even he did not understand it and u feel while listening to him that u wanna stop him directly and ask -->(what? Why? How come? When?..Etc) but believe me u won't get any useful answer!!! ---> ( why not illustrating any thing while I am called as doctor?!!!).
and finally come to a very great person (and Allah only the great) "Dr.saeed el ghonemy" who can control the rules, the degrees even the humans, he can treat them as dummies just only because he mentioned by "Prof.Dr.." ---> (why not while I am having a position and authority?!!! ).... I think that is enough, I have not the time or the desire to write about this stuff more !!! ---> (why not while that is my blog ?! :p)...

But, without any comments and giving any reasons...
I felt today as I were at a SWINDLE and CHEATING process and I hated my self much ... That is what made me tired and tired ... I can not bear looking at my self!!!...
but, what can I do?!... This is our life -->(SWINDLE & CHEATING) ...In fact, these both factors are our SLOGAN... And since I live in this life and since I belong to this country and since I attached to this faculty so I aught to raise this SLOGAN above and to keep it in front of my eyes all the time...What a rule?!!!

any way, again it is my FATE and there is no option for me to run away ... I should face all that ... We now get rid of pre-final and preparing for our final seminar and in my opinion and from my feelings I think it won't much different from today...But, who knows?!!!

Allah, U know what is inside me well...So, plz help me and forgive me for all my offenses....!!! :-(

O_0

Fighting...!!!

WOW...
we have not met today online to prepare for our pre-final seminar...
actually we have nothing to prepare ... I just finished part of our demo but it did not work at all...!!!
I got in a fighting with one of my project's members and unfortunately, I went far in my words and shouted a lot ... In fact I got so nervous but really I GOT MY OVER ... IT IS OUT MY LIMITS ... I can not imagine my self at college after about 3 hours waiting for my pre-final seminar withOUT a project !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'(
was it my fault?! ... was it any of my team members fault?! ... OR was it OURS??!!!
I do not know ... Allah, be with us plz ... Forgave us if we did any mistakes... And help us today:-(...

Now, I can not think, I can not sleep, I can not do any thing else ... Simply, I just want to CRY... :'(

Project Pressure...

hmf ... I am so tired... I feel like a huge stone has dropped on my head ... I feel like a lot of noisy guys shouting in my mind...
by the way, I just came home now!, I was at rania's house ... We were working at our graduation project!!! :-S ... Preparing for tomorrow's pre-final seminar...
we still have a lot of bugs in our project... We have not any demo until now!!!...
I am so worried about this seminar ... Oppps, we did not even finish our presentation...
I am wondering what will happen tom. ISA? !!!...
Really, I feel that I HATE this project ... yaaaaaaaa3...
This project learn u how to hate ur self, ur work, ur college and ur LIFE!...
I have a question...
WHY? -- >(do not ask me why WHAT?!) ...NO COMMENT

but , it is my FATE and I am gonna work in it right now ... u can say it is infinite working or working for ever but this project will never END!!!
I have online meeting with my team after a while ... I will continue ISA after this USELESS meeting !!! ---> (sorry my wonderfull team!)...
Salam for now...

Damn It !!!

I just knew now that our college gonna cancel pre-final seminars for information systems department... Really, I got so tired from this stuff and their stupid rules... :@ they did not satisfy to post our pre-final seminars before all other departments also they canceled their seminar at all ... DAMN IT ! :@:@ any way, ALLAH FORGIVES U FCIS STUFF... I wish THE END for all that will be soon ISA... I CAN NOT BEAR MORE :-( ...
EL Ru7maa ya RAAAb

About Me!

Asslam Alikom...

Well, Umm..My name is Mona, I am fresh graduated this year (2005)...
Faculty of computers and information science...Computer science department...Ain shams university...
My birth day is 22/9/1984 --> (P.S: VIRGO :-) )...
I live in Egypt-Cairo... But, I have born at Mansoura and I love it sooooo much, It is my favorite country by the way...
hmmm...What else? ya, I have 2 sisters and 1 brother and I am the oldest...
My hobbies:- I like drawing, reading (especially space and science books)...P.S:- do not forget Micky :-) , programming and solving riddles (especially Math riddles :-)) ...
My favorite animal is Cats and only cats ... Especially its kids :-) ... It is so cute ...
and about my favorite food it is potatoes ;; :-D
My dream to gratify Allah and win with paradise ISA... And my aim in life to build a nice, happy and successfull family in life and after life... And for my field to be a useful person generate good products to dispense us with other countries software...
Finally, I need to say that I hate Israelis ... No Comment!!!


C U later ISA...

Salam